I figured it out fairly early when he came to find me on Thursday night-- that it wasn't really his true will. He was completely convinced killing me would bring an end to everything. I wasn't able to reason with him, and honestly...

[ She lowers her eyes. ]

I was one of the first people chosen to... act, to protect the others in the only way we could, but I never wanted to hurt anyone. I didn't want to kill anyone. I went into that week expecting to die for what I'd done.

So I can't say I was surprised.