[ he's still uncomfortable talking about this because he still isn't sure where they stand, exactly, so his thoughts are just ksdfjdfdk ]
Um. I yelled at him for being stupid, he asked me what I meant when I'd said that I liked him before, and I told him? [ shrugs...? ] So we went on a date when the culture festival thing showed up.
I'm sure you'll be fine, then. He also told me his wish, and I do have some experience with working to prevent someone from being entirely deleted. The situation's a bit different, but if I can help, I will.
It's different than the kind of thing I'm used to working on, too. It sounded like Kon might have some ideas for what to do about it, but I... I want to help, too, if there's a way.
I figured it out fairly early when he came to find me on Thursday night-- that it wasn't really his true will. He was completely convinced killing me would bring an end to everything. I wasn't able to reason with him, and honestly...
[ She lowers her eyes. ]
I was one of the first people chosen to... act, to protect the others in the only way we could, but I never wanted to hurt anyone. I didn't want to kill anyone. I went into that week expecting to die for what I'd done.
[ there's a moment where lux's face flashes through his mind before he shuts that thought down. ]
...Yeah, I just don't think it's that easy for me. But that's a good philosophy. I know I would have appreciated something like that when I was being controlled.
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commandertoolbelt) wrote2021-07-05 12:37 pm
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...I forgot about that, actually. We were supposed to talk about someone important to us, right?
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Yes, that's right. I've done it a few times, but if you haven't done it yet, I don't mind sharing with you.
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I guess for me, it'd be Tsuyu or Mabes?
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[ With a slightly rueful smile. ]
But why don't you tell me about Tsuyukusa? [ she was dead for that trial oops ]
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[ ...should've known better than to mention the tree, honestly. ]
Uh. Well. We're dating, I guess?
[ what are we supposed to say for this thing, anyway? ]
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[ Yes, tell her the deets. ]
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Um. I yelled at him for being stupid, he asked me what I meant when I'd said that I liked him before, and I told him? [ shrugs...? ] So we went on a date when the culture festival thing showed up.
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[ That's adorable. ]
I'm glad the two of you grew to be so close. When I first met him, he seemed to be having difficulty communicating with others.
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He still has problems with that. But I do, too, so it's not like I can say much about it.
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Then I think you can probably understand each other pretty well.
... Thank you, for being there for him.
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...I'm trying, though. I don't know how much it helps, but he is important to me. I want to make sure he gets his wish.
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I'm sure you'll be fine, then. He also told me his wish, and I do have some experience with working to prevent someone from being entirely deleted. The situation's a bit different, but if I can help, I will.
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It's different than the kind of thing I'm used to working on, too. It sounded like Kon might have some ideas for what to do about it, but I... I want to help, too, if there's a way.
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[ she glances at the screen, at the grades, at the ones who are enrolled and the ones who are not. ]
So if this place won't do it, we can come together and do it for him.
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Right. I think he underestimates how many people here care about him, sometimes.
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[ She says, his victim.
It's fine. ]
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...You're not even a little mad at him?
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[ She lowers her eyes. ]
I was one of the first people chosen to... act, to protect the others in the only way we could, but I never wanted to hurt anyone. I didn't want to kill anyone. I went into that week expecting to die for what I'd done.
So I can't say I was surprised.
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[ leo shakes his head. ]
I don't know if I could be that forgiving about it. Not when we all have important things to live for, you know?
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I just refuse to take that out on anyone else.
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...Yeah, I just don't think it's that easy for me. But that's a good philosophy. I know I would have appreciated something like that when I was being controlled.
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[ there's some concern when she glances at him. ]
When you were being controlled?
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[ hard to say ]
...It was before we got here. I... kind of started a war because some spirit took over.
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Were you able to break free of it?
[ Leo?? ]
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