[ honestly, this hits really close to home... so leo is just going to come over and sit next him so their shoulders are touching, and just lean into him a bit. ]
Trust me, I know how that feels. And I know how it feels being the one who said something the others don't want to hear, too. That doesn't mean it shouldn't have been said.
I just... what if things could have changed? What if Nona could have been saved? Even if it wanted things to end now... I don't know. There were times when I thought... I mean, it's only been a few years since Byakuroku died. If I'd kept living the way I'd had, just wallowing in him being gone... [He shakes his head.]
It matters as long as you're not going to get stuck on what could have been forever. But I think the worry was that... "saving" Nona would have meant leaving the story open for a sequel and letting this whole thing happen again. And nobody's going to wish what happened to all of us on anyone else.
But I guess it's over now, either way. [ nudges him gently. ] What are you planning to do first, once we're out of here?
Yeah, about that. I'm... not actually sure what I'm going back to, right this second? Last I remember, I got blasted off my own ship and then I woke up here in Wiwaldi.
[ HAHA... moving on... ]
But hey, assuming the prophecy thing works out, maybe I can come and help you guys with that. Getting a bunch of ye oldes settled into the modern world is going to take all the help you can get.
N-No? No. That's definitely not it. I'm just - don't know what's coming next back home, that's all. Khione threw me off the ship, so I just... need to figure out how to get back without dying, but it's hard to plan for that when I don't know where I'll even land.
[ it's... kind of weird, leo thinks, how happy the idea of that makes him. having someone who cares enough to want to try, someone for whom he isn't just a mechanic or the extra who's just there but no one really needs. he actually matters to tsuyukusa, and that is more important to leo than he would have ever realized.
before, when he mentioned swearing on the styx to prove he wasn't lying, it had been more of a joke than anything. it was too early for him to expect tsuyu would actually ask for that. if he asked now, though, leo would make that oath in a heartbeat, no regrets.
but for now, he'll settle for pulling tsuyukusa into a kiss, one that lingers a little more than the few they've shared before, and he hopes that will say what he doesn't know how to put into words. ]
[Oh. Well. It's hard to stay mad after something like this. He leans into the kiss, happy to linger longer, hands rising to tangle in Leo's hair, absorbing details like he would in the forest. The softness, the warmth, the faint scent of Leo's sweat and I just assume there's an ambient aroma of smoke and grease. It's different than the forest, but it's good now too because it's Leo.
Eventually he does get too embarassed though, you can practically feel his temperature rising and his hair sticking up like a ghibli character. So eventually he has to break away and bury his red face in the crook of Leo's shoulder instead.]
I don't even know why you like me but I'm glad you do.
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commandertoolbelt) wrote2021-06-19 10:17 pm
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Since I've never been reliable before no one took my experience seriously, I guess.
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Trust me, I know how that feels. And I know how it feels being the one who said something the others don't want to hear, too. That doesn't mean it shouldn't have been said.
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I just... what if things could have changed? What if Nona could have been saved? Even if it wanted things to end now... I don't know. There were times when I thought... I mean, it's only been a few years since Byakuroku died. If I'd kept living the way I'd had, just wallowing in him being gone...
[He shakes his head.]
I guess it doesn't matter.
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But I guess it's over now, either way. [ nudges him gently. ] What are you planning to do first, once we're out of here?
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[Though now he's frowning a bit because he's worrying about all the other Amatsuki NPCs.]
Though if I use my wish to save all the people in Amatsuki instead of just me... they'll need a lot of help getting resettled in Higan...
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[ HAHA... moving on... ]
But hey, assuming the prophecy thing works out, maybe I can come and help you guys with that. Getting a bunch of ye oldes settled into the modern world is going to take all the help you can get.
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Are you saying you don't want me to come with you?
[IS HE BEING DUMPED?]
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[HE'S getting uncertain and confused which means he's getting mad.]
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[ it's... kind of weird, leo thinks, how happy the idea of that makes him. having someone who cares enough to want to try, someone for whom he isn't just a mechanic or the extra who's just there but no one really needs. he actually matters to tsuyukusa, and that is more important to leo than he would have ever realized.
before, when he mentioned swearing on the styx to prove he wasn't lying, it had been more of a joke than anything. it was too early for him to expect tsuyu would actually ask for that. if he asked now, though, leo would make that oath in a heartbeat, no regrets.
but for now, he'll settle for pulling tsuyukusa into a kiss, one that lingers a little more than the few they've shared before, and he hopes that will say what he doesn't know how to put into words. ]
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Eventually he does get too embarassed though, you can practically feel his temperature rising and his hair sticking up like a ghibli character. So eventually he has to break away and bury his red face in the crook of Leo's shoulder instead.]
I don't even know why you like me but I'm glad you do.
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The feeling's mutual. But I try not to think about it too much, or I might spontaneously combust.