So, Kaoruko apparently said she killed Hiyori because he was annoying. And one of the groups from last week that came back injured mentioned that they were compelled to act a certain way, and when they gave in, it felt natural for them.
...I've felt that, too, back home. Where you feel like yourself, like whatever you're doing is your own idea, but it's not, really. There's something else that takes over and makes you think it is while everything else seems right.
Rupert was pretty adamant about not wanting violence that first week, too. So I think it would have to be something like that making them act, you know? Something putting those thoughts in their head so it feels like it came from them, all to make them play out their "role" in this whole thing.
Mm. Something similar has happened to me before as well. Usually, uhm, fighting demonic entities, they can do this.
[But he listens to the rest of this, nodding.]
I think this is a good theory. We weren't compelled to do anything, where I went, but we encountered other versions of people from here. They would act normal, and then at times their eyes would turn black and they would try to fight. But. . . once or twice it seemed like she was resisting it? Could be just a trick, but. . . it made me think there was something to the control theory.
Oh, gods, that's even creepier. But my eyes apparently turned gold when I was being controlled, so... you could be right about that. Hard to believe how this place took the whole murder thing and still managed to make it even worse.
Again, it's hard to say. . . whether it was a hint or just an odd aspect of that place. Or something drawn from someone's memories - things that happened to Ichiro were also part of that place we were in for some reason.
[He shrugs.]
Being controlled and hurting people is not something I wish on anyone.
I keep wondering if that's a normal thing, though- taking stuff from our memories. But I don't know if the other two were like that. No one's mentioned recognizing any of it that I know of.
I feel a bit badly even mentioning it, because I would hate for anyone to stroll through my own memories and then run around talking about what they saw. Maybe others are simply more sensitive than I am.
. . . I know a little about that. When we first started traveling together, she and I fought all the time. I think we both felt we could not do a thing without talking past one another or starting a fight.
Yeah, it's kind of the same with someone on my ship back home. But he also had a really good reason not to like me.
I've never been good with people, so it's not like it's surprising or anything. It's just... frustrating. I don't know how I'm supposed to talk to her when this just keeps happening.
She is. . . she is a fierce person. She says how she feels bluntly. It can come off as harsher than she intends it. If you disagree with her, she will argue, but it doesn't mean she dislikes you.
I'm not even trying to argue with her most of the time, but I still say something wrong somehow. We've had a total of, like, two conversations that didn't turn bad, and one of them was just about pranking someone in the dorm.
[It's okay. He frankly doesn't care if Leo likes Beau or not, but his comment at trial about every conversation between them going wrong was too familiar.]
. . . All I mean is that I don't know that you're really saying the wrong thing or doing anything wrong. She butts heads with people.
I guess I just don't know what to do about it. We're supposed to all be working together to figure this place out and find a way home, but if we can't do that...
[ he shrugs, helpless. ]
Talking around each other all the time isn't going to help anyone.
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So, Kaoruko apparently said she killed Hiyori because he was annoying. And one of the groups from last week that came back injured mentioned that they were compelled to act a certain way, and when they gave in, it felt natural for them.
...I've felt that, too, back home. Where you feel like yourself, like whatever you're doing is your own idea, but it's not, really. There's something else that takes over and makes you think it is while everything else seems right.
Rupert was pretty adamant about not wanting violence that first week, too. So I think it would have to be something like that making them act, you know? Something putting those thoughts in their head so it feels like it came from them, all to make them play out their "role" in this whole thing.
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[But he listens to the rest of this, nodding.]
I think this is a good theory. We weren't compelled to do anything, where I went, but we encountered other versions of people from here. They would act normal, and then at times their eyes would turn black and they would try to fight. But. . . once or twice it seemed like she was resisting it? Could be just a trick, but. . . it made me think there was something to the control theory.
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[He shrugs.]
Being controlled and hurting people is not something I wish on anyone.
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I keep wondering if that's a normal thing, though- taking stuff from our memories. But I don't know if the other two were like that. No one's mentioned recognizing any of it that I know of.
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[ even if it means hurting their feelings in the process. ]
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[He doesn't sound like he quite agrees - he thinks Leo is probably a pretty altruistic kid.]
Fair enough, then. I agree with that goal.
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[. . .]
Is Beauregard giving you a hard time?
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Not... on purpose? I know it's not intentional. It's just - every time I try to talk to her, it's like I always say something wrong.
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I've never been good with people, so it's not like it's surprising or anything. It's just... frustrating. I don't know how I'm supposed to talk to her when this just keeps happening.
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[ he is sulking. i'm sorry, caleb. ]
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. . . All I mean is that I don't know that you're really saying the wrong thing or doing anything wrong. She butts heads with people.
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[ he shrugs, helpless. ]
Talking around each other all the time isn't going to help anyone.
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Yeah. Yeah, you’re right. It was like that with Frank, too.